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I’ve put on quite a bit of weight lately, which i’m really not happy about. I’m desperate to lose it, and I’m trying so hard, but really, nothing’s happening. I exersise daily (I burn about 140-150 callories in doing so: this is 15 minutes on our crosstrainer) and I’m constantly walking around school, and so forth.

I think my biggest problem is the fact that Mum never buys me healthy stuff. She and my brother don’t put on weight, regardless of how much they eat, so she will always buy fatty, suggary foods, or really bad fruit which goes off within days. I try my hardest to eat fruit and salads and stuff, but I always end up buying from our school canteen because what we have at home is crap. My parents won’t provide me money to buy food for myself once a week, so i’m stuck.

It hit me today the most. I went to the shops today after school with my friend, Rachel. We went up to a store so I could get a new bikini for when I go down the coast on Friday. I purchassed one, but it took me ages to find a size fourteen. There were an abundance of sixes, eights and tens, but hardly any fourteens: None that would look good on me anyway. I finally found one, but now I don’t even know if I want to be wearing it. Why? It’s a size fourteen.

I came home with my new pants which i’d just had taken up. I tried it on with a new top I bought on Sunday. The pants were bought two weeks ago. The pants AND top are already too tight.

The hardest thing about it all is the fact that every day I have to go to a school full of stick thin girls, who would probably never even be the size that I am. They constantly bitch about how fat their thighs are or how much of a gut they have. I just sit there and stay quiet. Most of these girls are literally half my size, and i’m not kidding. When I mention to anyone, friend or otherwise, that i’m overweight, or that i’m a size fourteen, they just scoff at me: “No you’re not, Sarah, stop kidding yourself” “You’re not overweight, stop lying — oh god my thighs are so big!” — It only makes me feel worse. Yes I’m overweight and Yes I’m a size fourteen. No: I don’t want to be.

I really give up anything if it meant that I could be a size 10.

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Heh, same here in the weight-situation. I really hate having a low/high metabolism. (whichever it is, I never seem to remember..)

Hey.I’m in the same situation. I’m a size 12 tops, 14 trousers, and I know how u feel. When I was at school I constantly felt concious of my weight. I hardly ate anything during the day, and managed to get down to a size 10 top. There’s nothing that will solve the problem, you’ve gotta work for it. Try talking to your mom, although, again, I know how you feel. My mom does me huge meals every night, lol. Since I’ve been working I’ve put on weight, I used to have a flat belly, but now its just looking horrible. So, I’m off swimming tonight, haah.

I have been gaining a lot fo weight too lately, dunno why. Sometimes there’s just no reason too it, but I think it helps not obsessing about it really. Just try and eat regularly and skip those small and non-important snacks in between meals. You could try writing down everything you eat durong a week and then see what’s causing it. or just relax and be sure you’re perfect anyway :) It’s all up to you :)

Oh dear my special friend
I must protest. The average year 12 student puts on 7 kilos during the year (i’m already on my 1st or 2nd one). I think you are wonderful. I have no fabulous bits of advice on losing weight for you except perhaps…buy a tapeworm? Besides, rather you be slightly more overweight than you would like rather than anorexic (aka my sister) cause then you’re body would screw up and you’d have to go to doctors and you would be sick all the time…that would be majorly bad. I love you dearest!
*heart* Phoebe

you should maybe have a talk with your mom about what kind of food you’d like there to be in the house. and not say you want better food because you want to lose weight, but because you want to eat healthier.
also, start watching your carb intake instead of your calorie intake. carbs like sugar are what puts the pounds on for a lot of people. &probably start doing more excersize as well/for a longer period of time. like, a variety of different things. if you do the same excerize for the same amount of time everyday it wont affect your body anylonger at a certain point.
(can you tell i’ve done a lot of dieting/whatnotin my life? lol)

i think you should talk to ur family about the food that they buy you…
you know what? keep on excersiing, thats good for ur body, but dont obsess over your size so much: you’re just gonna make urself feel worse, which may contibute into gaining more weight…just be happy, dont think about it too much..people come in different sizes
just keep on working at it with a positive attitude :)

I feel your pain. I’m a bit of a fatty myself and I’m still struggling to get rid of the spare tyre around my waist. Thing is I don’t do enough cardiovascular exercise like running cos that’s boring! LIfting weights is fun though and having more muscles mean you burn off more calories, even when you’re doing nothing.

Lastly, I have to say I like a women with flesh on them rather than stick ladies. Y’know, more cushion for the pushin’. ;)

:( *hug*

Easter doesn’t help much huh? It’s only saturday and I’ve already put on 2 kg from eating chocolate :|

Try burning more calories - like each day do an extra 10. I don’t know what other advice I can give you sorry!
Ooh, lately I’ve been eating frozen watermelon. Watermelon is pretty cheap and you just cut it up into squares and put it in a blender and then freeze it. Watermelon has pretty much no calories and it’s really yummy and since you’re freezing it, it lasts longer (I think? I always eat it within a few days anyway lol).

I know how you feel too. I’m a 10/12 and there isn’t much out there for me either. I do not wear bathing suits becauseI look awful. But, chin up, things always get better.

Wha… You’re a size 10/12 and you don’t wear az bathing suit?? That’s just being selfish Cheryl! *shakehead*

From what I see you don’t look that big, but even if you are you’re still beautiful. Some of the most beautiful girls are larger, or in my opinion at least. Now I feel kind of bad for complaining about my weight. *guilty*

One of my good friends always says, “I’m too fat!” “I think I’m going to get a double chin. Look!” “Eewww my thighs are soo big…” blah blah blah and all this shit that makes me feel worse. She’s 95 pounds and she’s complaining. She wears XS clothing. It really pisses me off because she is NOT FAT. She weighs the least in our group–she’s also the shortest–and well, she’s just not. I’ve told her to stop it a few times, and she just says, “But I am really fat!”

-_-” Sometimes I WISH these kinds of people would be overweight so they can realize that they weren’t fat 50 pounds ago. God.

Oh yeah and I also hate it when people deny what you obviously are. It’s so fucking shallow.

I think the main problem IS the food your mom buys. If I lived in your house I’d probably gain weight too. Maybe you could ask your mom if you could go along to her shopping trips. That way you can select fruits and stuff and quietly sneak out of your shopping cart cookies & etc. ;)

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