Well i’m ‘home.’ I wouldn’t call it that though. Ever since I first fell for James, I always felt that my place was not in Sydney. I no longer feel like an Australian - like a Sydney sider. My house is no longer something that welcomes me at the end of the day. Instead, I dread having to fall asleep in my bed, in my house, in my street, city, country. I don’t want to be here.

I want to be with him. I want to feel comfortable, and I want to fall asleep knowing that in the morning i’ll see something that welcomes me and something that I no longer have to wish to see.

As you can probably tell, i’m upset, hysterical even, and not thinking right. Still, this is what i’m feeling and I felt the need to say this. I’ll probably have calmed down again in a few days, but I still feel like tomorrow will be even worse than it is today.

I miss you, James.

Jetrockit, Renee’s site, and the rest of Ermina’s server got hacked this evening. Someone blamed me for Renee’s site and Jetrockit, before anyone knew of the entire server, as well as blaming Robyn. I got very upset about this, due to the fact I was called many very insulting names, as well as having someone wish that my plane goes down tomorrow.

I’m a paranoid flyer, and that just made my day.

*cry*

Mood: Excited *hyper*
Music: Nobody Listened, Delta Goodrem

God, that title sounds like a bloody MK+A Movie.

what first? Oh, yes. I’m so fricken sick of people getting angry at me for unknown reasons and getting other people to do their dirty work and yell at me, rather than yelling at me themselves.

If you’re reading this, which I know you are, please, grow a backbone and yell at me yourself.

Now that that’s out of the way. ^_^
Tomorrow is going to be interesting to say the least. I have a 7am flight to Auckland, which means I have to be at the airport by 5.30. With this assumption, i’ll have to leave to get to the airport at 5, so i’ll have to be up at 4.10 in order to be ready to leave. Needless to say, i’ll be asking for flight attendants to pump the coffee into my veins. Apparently my inflight movie is A Series of Unfortunate Events, which i’ve heard mixed reviews about. I’ll probably end up reading my dan brown, or doing some coding on my laptop (which is now working again, thank god. :)) James is taking me shopping as soon as I arrive, due to the fact that Sydney has shit-all in its stores right now and i’m growing too much. pft.

As you can probably see, i’ve been working on Sewwy.com a lot lately :) There’s two new skins, some more content in the Girl section, and some coming-soon visitor content (which will be completed after my exams, I promise!) I’ve changed the look of my blog slightly, adding categories here and there, I actually have a pretty signature, and i’ve encorporated some wordpress stuff into the side bar, such as categories and archives, so you can see the past of sewwy. Not like you’d want to.

Now i’m going to give some plugs, because these guys are awesome and deserve it.
Sonya, because she’s an awesome friend, and may as well be my sister :D
Robyn, because she makes me smile and is one of those really random people that doesn’t give a shit about much :)
Tiffany, because she’s cute.
Jesse, because he kicked the bucket,
and finally,
Li, because she’s a genius. A super Genius!

Bye now! Will blog in En-Zed, most likely :)

My damned laptop has kicked the bucket again. The fucking wireless refuses to work for the third time after being fixed. Needless to say, I am not frustrated.

So i’m going to make a list of things that do not currently work. Anything in bold has been attempted to be dealth with today.

Next thing you know, my brothers computer will die, a tv will blow up or my bloody car will get stolen. hah.

If there is a god, he’s sure one arsehole.

My laptop is being a bitch. Apparently, it isnt extracting DNS name servers properly, so when I try to view many sites, 90% of the time, I cant access the site at all, suggesting that the name is wrong or the server is down or something.

Believe me, its a pain in the arse when I cant even check my email or my dailies because of my bloody laptop. GAH. If it’s not one thing it’s another.